hasnt been blogging for ages..gt lots to say but itz always better to keep inside ur heart..u never know wat ppl will think after they read u nvr know even if u hurt anyone in the process of revealing ur feelings..wat a hard world to be in..
orientation came and pass..itz like juz a blink of an eye itz gone..how i miss those happy daes that i can juz go to sch being high everydae..i miss my og and the way they cheer..og 9 rocks man!and my fellow ogl mats...alicia eric song guang they simply rock my socks man!we onli knew each other for like so short but we seems like old frenz..thats an amazing thing that happened during o1..the whole og was so bonded so tgt..and im glad im part of them..makes me misses og8..but am i still part of them?made alot of frenz thru o1..my dance partner raymond..yvonne and all those ogls and councils...i nvr regretted being an ogl..and nvr regretted nt staying at home to rest thou someone said tat i was stupid to do that..haha
now tt o1 is over..need to get back to study..cannot catch up...nt onli studies..everything..sometimes ppl said sth that doesnt mean bad but u juz get the wrong idea of it...for eg...
me:i gt tuition on...how to go..
a:i dun think tuition is a valid reason for teachers blablabla...
me:but my tuition is pair with b de leh then if i dun go she cant go
a:oh then u better go..
my 1st feeling is that..u heard my tuition with b then u wan me to go lar..her study impt mine nt izzit...2nd thot of it..maybe cause like tt will hai the other person maybe nt cause b is her gd fren lar...so wat does she really mean?haizz
juz felt so small in the world that without my existence there is no difference..everyone is telling me to do different things and wat am i supposed to do?i need a break from all these man..im feeling so small and so tiny...im feeling transparent...am i supposed to be asked of an opinion or am i supposed to juz act on an command..wat role am i playing in everything?i simply need to get away juz hope that itz still orientation period those happy daes will nvr end..
i quit youth alumni comm le...i dun wanna be in it and cannot give an committment..i dunno how will s think...he didnt reply any of my msg till late nite with a ok..so wat does tt mean?does tt mean im ok to quit or does tt mean im ok nt to go todae onli..everything is so blur and luan and i hate it...
anyone who happens to read this..dun take anything tt i feel as personal attacks..dun even comment juz let me be..
on a happier note...15 daes and jie jie will be back le..
beary hugss-1:24 PM